The Good & The Bad

I know I was told there would be days like these. What kind of days? The days where you can hardly keep the tears in your eyes until you make it to the car when you are walking out from a long day.
Today was the day I wanted to give up on myself & my dreams. Yep, I was willing to admit to everyone who wants me to fail that I just can't do it. Let them think they got the better of me, you 'nay-sayers' know who you are.
But of course, as fate would have it, a best friend came to my rescue. Out of nowhere she called just to say hi & there she was on the phone and a shoulder to cry on. What do I have if I don't have my friends, the people who believe in me unconditionally? And as much as my wonderful husband loves me, he just doesn't understand the way a friend does.

So what is driving me so crazy?! The PAPERWORK!! There is so much, wtf?! I mean, give me a freakin break, honestly! Today we sat in a computer lab in the am to learn all about what the patient care secretary does. Then we sat with a secretary in the afternoon. I don't have a problem understanding how to do things so much, it's when things are done wrong or don't go as they should that my brain can't quite compute what is happening. All I can say is, whatever...I will get it eventually.

The title of this post was the good & bad and you are probably wondering where the good is?? Me too, LOL! I met my preceptor on Wednesday. She IS the energizer bunny. I have never seen anyone move so fast & do so much & be actually good at it. She has 10 years of nursing under her belt. (Please, someone who is reading this, set a reminder on your calendar to call me in 10 years and ask me if I am like her! I hope that I will be!!)
Anyway, she knows a lot about how things are supposed to work and what has to be done. And she actually makes it look easy. She doesn't hover & she lets me do things. Tomorrow I am with her again on the floor.

The outcome of my talk with my friend resulted in me gaining a new motto. It's kind of lengthy but I like it & it puts me in the right mindset. Here goes:
"I am a kind & caring nurse, and I wear Teflon scrubs."
The Teflon scrubs is something I picked up from a nurse who is also an instructor for another college and she said she always used to tell her students to put on their Teflon scrubs and let it all bounce off their back. I like that. Because there are some people out there who aren't very nice. Not nice at all, but I refuse to be that kind of person.

Off to study for the you know whats. 2 more people from my college passed...it's looking good people, very good. :D