Blurriness

Sometimes it is amazing to realize that you are living in a fog. A self-created semblance of reality. That is me. Fortunately, tonight I realized it, I put my fog lights on and made my way through the haze.

I've worked so hard to get where I'm at right now. College degree, new job, house, nice car, etc... I can easily see how people lose their love & purpose for living. I think I almost did. I had a heart to heart with my husband & after a rocky start of the conversation it eventually ended with a good understanding: we need to put back into each other, as a married couple.

It was quite a sacrifice for us while I was in school & he was working a job 2 hours from home. We didn't have "our" time together. It was mix and match of schedules and rushing here and there and homework and deadlines. We realized that we've had 3 pretty rocky years. We also admonished ourselves that we are still together.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying we were 'iffy' when it comes to our marriage committment. Actually quite the opposite, but tonight we decided we didn't want to lose that 'loving feeling'. You know, that feeling when you are in your first years of marriage, that your partner can do no wrong & you'll still love him anyway?

We came to some decisions tonight. We are going to invest back into us. After all, jobs will come and go, stresses will always be there, the bad days pass just as quickly as the good, but it's who you spend those days with that matter most.

Huuhhh...big sigh of relief.

The Latest...

I am long overdue for this post, so sorry. The update goes like this:

I am finished my orientation on the unit I've been blogging about & I am also with new preceptors. My last day on 2A was very nice, my preceptor bought me lunch and gave me flowers and a card. It was very sweet & she wrote "You will be a great nurse. Have confidence in yourself." I liked that!

I am now onto orthopedics, 2C. I've been orienting with a nurse who is retiring this week after 20 years. I'm trying not to be jealous. She is great, though. She lets me go and do things on my own & follows up appropriately. It is really building my confidence.

So far I have seen B/L Total Knee Replacements, Total Hip Replacement & Open Rotator Cuff Repair. I really like Ortho! It is quick pace, you get post-ops almost daily & they are discharged pretty quickly.

No complaints, just lots of learning!