Sunday, September 21, 2008

Blurriness

Sometimes it is amazing to realize that you are living in a fog. A self-created semblance of reality. That is me. Fortunately, tonight I realized it, I put my fog lights on and made my way through the haze.

I've worked so hard to get where I'm at right now. College degree, new job, house, nice car, etc... I can easily see how people lose their love & purpose for living. I think I almost did. I had a heart to heart with my husband & after a rocky start of the conversation it eventually ended with a good understanding: we need to put back into each other, as a married couple.

It was quite a sacrifice for us while I was in school & he was working a job 2 hours from home. We didn't have "our" time together. It was mix and match of schedules and rushing here and there and homework and deadlines. We realized that we've had 3 pretty rocky years. We also admonished ourselves that we are still together.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying we were 'iffy' when it comes to our marriage committment. Actually quite the opposite, but tonight we decided we didn't want to lose that 'loving feeling'. You know, that feeling when you are in your first years of marriage, that your partner can do no wrong & you'll still love him anyway?

We came to some decisions tonight. We are going to invest back into us. After all, jobs will come and go, stresses will always be there, the bad days pass just as quickly as the good, but it's who you spend those days with that matter most.

Huuhhh...big sigh of relief.

3 comments:

Mrs. Realife said...

You should see my face right now -- Come on... you know I'm all about marriages working and being great :) -- Of course, when it's concerning the people I love the most, it means all the more -- You are awesome, Jaimers and this post reflects why we are such close friends... I love you mucho --

p.s. -- please tell me you haven't had that "follow me" thing on your blog long... I should have been first! :)

Order & Chaos said...

After 16 years of marriage I will admit we've shared our fair share of rough times, as well as celebrations. (This anniversary was a good one. Thanks for asking!)

Marriage is a work in progress, always...and it's good to see you and your husband are willing to work hard.

You've done very well for yourself, and it seems like your husband has stood by your side, and that says a lot! So good for you both! Let the good times roll...now that you've made it through the fog!

Robert said...

Wow this post hits home.

It's been a tough 3 years for us too.